i am a person who is constantly guarded. you just have to observe and you will know. when i sit or stand, i cross my arms in front of me. to protect myself, to keep a safe distance from everyone. i didnt realise, i was keeping my life away from my family too.

perhaps i am not sensible enough to be the older sibling. for i suddenly realise, my brother is just so much more admirable in his ways and thinking.

kelong trip 3rd to 5th june! a chance to perhaps reconciliate things and spend more time with my family. family time- a commodity that is harder to come by, and all the more a treasure.

there's a kind of gratitude towards family, that is more than what words can express. a kind of indebtedness. for always understanding.